Lately everyone and everything have been dying. ;.;

And unfortunately, my dear Grandpapi's health and state of mind have been deteriorating this ... last week and a half. I was told just hours ago that he is now unable to walk, and he's pissing himself every like half hour. :'C

He had a horrible accident about three weeks ago, he fell of his bicycle and hit his head on the side walk. He had got a bad concussion. Now, as most of my close friends on here know already, my ol' grandpa is 91 years old. He is ancient.

I'm very scared of what might come...

It's quite ironic too, because just a week ago I asked my Mom if she thought Grandpa would live to be 100.

I hate death...

........

I just pretend it doesn't exist.

Death is a terrifying thought. It's inevitable, and it just makes people sad. It depresses me when ever I attempt to understand it.

And this is why I look at life in a positive way. Don't waste life being mopey and wanting to be dead. Life is amazing, and it's very sad it is designed to have an end.



I'm not a religious person, but this is my belief on life after death...

Once we pass, we have 2 choices: Continue to reside here on Earth, or go to Heaven.

Unless you were a total jerk ass during your real life, you'll be forced to stay here on Earth. ( And you become an angry spirit, or are punished and turned into a demonic creature that torments the living. )

I am a big believer in spirits / ghosts / demons / all the paranormal goodies, but I won't get into that.

:/

There's this Portuguese myth that if you touch the dead body of your deceased relative / friend before they are buried, you will not be afraid of their apparition / spirit if you encounter it. [ My Mom told me this some years ago. ]

When my Grandma passed 2 years ago, I did this. It brought me comfort, and it made it easier having to deal with her passing. ( She had caught pneumonia, and it weakened her heart. Slowly, over a period of 2 weeks, her heart shut down, with the rest of her other organs following. She was 90. )


But I guess that's how life is, right? Always throwing you the damn curve balls.

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Anyway, on to more positive matters...


I mailed Godzilla to HP! I really hope he can be repaired. ( I didn't write on the problem form that it had a virus. I gave a brief description that implies I had faulty hardware, and that this is totally HP's fault. I know, I'm a bitch. )



Also, I've been very active on my youtube! So please, take a look if you enjoy watching glitches and crap on the old Pokemon GB games. : D;

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OKAY CRAP. ! ZOE ILU! I'M SORRY I FORGOT YOUR BIRTHDAY! I WILL HAVE A DELICIOUS PRESENT FOR YOU SOON!


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